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What It Means to Try Blogging ‘Down Another Street’

Blog Featured Novel The Shadows at Sunrise

It often seems like I’m stuck in a never-ending cycle with regards to regular blogging. Thing is, “regular” is nothing to do with it.

I get excited about blogging (or feel the crushing weight of not blogging so much that I’ve gotta push back), make some grand promises about how things are going to change, then fail to change or write and come back to it months later with an explanation of why I haven’t been blogging.

It’s always the same explanation: depression. Anxiety. Lack of self-esteem. Fear of not succeeding.

There’s more to say about that. I’m going to write an article on it at some point, but this isn’t that article. There’s a brilliant quote from Portia Nelson’s book “There’s a Hole in My Sidewalk: The Romance of Self-Discovery” that fits pretty well here:

“I walk down the street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I fall in.
I am lost… I am helpless.
It isn’t my fault.
It takes forever to find a way out.

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I pretend I don’t see it.
I fall in again.
I can’t believe I am in the same place.
But, it isn’t my fault.
It still takes me a long time to get out.

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I see it is there.
I still fall in. It’s a habit.
My eyes are open.
I know where I am.
It is my fault. I get out immediately.

walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I walk around it.

I walk down another street.” 

The point is this: another “apology for not blogging” blog post wouldn’t get me anywhere but the same old street; the same old hole.

Let’s walk down another street.

The Shadows At Sunrise: Progress

I’ve been working through the first act for my long-gestating novel, The Shadows At Sunrise. As I wrote before, I received some fantastic feedback from my mentor, Carrie Harris, and now it’s up to me to get cracking and rewriting something that, at this point, has taken me over 10 years.

That’s the worrying part about all this. It’s taken so damn long for various reasons, and with my mental health the way it (still) is, I’ve been stopping and starting and stopping again.

I have made progress. I’ve now rewritten the first two chapters, which may not sound like much, but when my first task is expanding the novel’s opening act a bunch… believe me when I say this is a whole lot of progress. I feel pretty good about what I’ve got. It’s decent stuff, and that’s coming from me, the guy who believes everything he writes has gotta be terrible.

I’m really, really hoping to make some serious progress on it now. It’s gonna be a long road, but hey; gotta walk down a different street, right?

Upcoming Blog Entries

There’s some stuff I’d like to work on writing, and would love your input on what you’d like to see:

  • How ‘The Shadows At Sunrise’ Is Changing for the Better
  • Writing to Music: My Spotify Playlist for ‘The Shadows At Sunrise’
  • Why Writers Who Are Gamers Should Be Playing Media Molecule’s ‘Dreams’
  • Self-Doubt and Writing a Novel Over a Long Period of Time
  • The Challenges in Rewriting a Novel After a Long Hiatus
  • Using ‘Habitica’ to Manage My Scattered Mind and Life
  • When Your Interests Pull You in Lots of Different Directions
  • What Point Do You Set Up a Writer’s Facebook Page?
  • General Life Stuff
  • General Gaming Stuff
  • General Writing Stuff

What do you want to see the most? Have any other ideas? Leave me a comment below with your thoughts. <3

That’s all I got today, friends. I think it’s a good start, though. Some other things I wanna look at: starting a newsletter. Changing some of my blog’s design.

Until next time: be well.

Photo by Matt Seymour on Unsplash

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